SEXISM

ok so everyone knows that i play water polo.. my coach is not the sharpest tool in the shed and hes a sissy.... for being an navy seal.... but thats just my opinion. anywho i love the sport thats basically the only reason why i play it... but my coach has this SUPPOSED asstiant coach... ya i dont belive that for a minute... what i mean is the AC has never played any college waterpolo and when he played for highschool it wasnt like he was on a division one team, it was bottom of the rung. he also had a coach who didnt know what he was talking about.. so hes already under qualified... i kept thinking hey maybe the guy will surprise me... and he did alright... by being a sexist pig...

everytime i have gotten the ball or went to shoot he always said that i couldnt do... granted my shot might not be as powerful our as fast as THE GUYS but i make smart shots.... thats why most of mine go in...but when i miss one shot... hes pist saying one of the boys good have gotten it in. my head coach has been saying that i need to shoot more... so i have been while the AC says i need to stop shooting. DOES THAT MAKE ANY SENSE?? it doesnt to me so this has been happening for the past week and a half... its summer league so the guys and the girls play on the same team... we are not one team.... its guys verses girls and we are losing considering the fact that there are three of us and one of us is deaf (i love her). not to mention the ACs little brother is on the other team. and if he happens to miss a shot its ok... hes not a girl so it must be fine... i dont know what to do ... i wanna scream and yank my hair out.... but thats just being a girl right...

i mean cant i be beautiful and wear dresses and do my make up and still be a strong an independant individual? this is a never ending fight..

not to mention... he wont even talk to me with an ounce of respect and my coach wont stand up to him he just wants to be buddy buddy with the guy. fine if that makes him feel better but he better not think that hes won... becuase i can cause havok... i just choose not to...

so i havent made the decission to quit...even though i am considering it. i love the sport... not the people... i dont get much playing time even if i am better then some of the guys... i go to every single practice and try... but how can i continue when all i want to do is punch the guy and its not like i can avoid him... he talks trash about me to the coach and the sign lanuage interperter(who is a close friend of the family) i dont know what i should do ....