every turn is a wrong one...

Have you ever felt that like ever choice is wrong?

Like you cant do anything to make it right? well thats how i feel.

Every time i try to fix something i just seem to make it worse. nothings going right and im now making the right choices but they dont seem to have any affect on those who told me i was screwing up. so if im making wrong choices and i try to fix them by making right choices why do you not see me??

but then it doesnt really matter when those who were telling you wont even talk to you.

wont even look at you, and they even said that you cant do it alone... then how come i feel like their making me do it all by myself??

I didnt turn for their help in the begining and ya that made things worse, but now im trying to fix it, doesnt that amount to something? i at least thought it would. It hurts to be snubbed by those who are so important to you and it hurts alot when your trying to make an important decision, one thats very hard and breaks your heart.


and its the choice that they want you to make.. man just writing this is bringing me to tears,

i just feel that nothing i do is right and that im all alone... just like before...

i make mistakes and im sorry, but you were always there to help me up.. and now when i need you most, your not. i dont know whether your bitter angry or hurt, but ive made my choice and it sucks.. and i just hoped that they would be there to help me through it.

just like you said you would. But i guess that ive screwed up to bad to fix it.




but you cant even talk to me. Even when im running over with things to tell you.. it just feels that a cold shoulder is all i have to talk to... not a warm loving heart.

I might be very off base... but thats how i feel, and i cant change it.