i was once asked if it was your last day on earth what would you do? i was giving the question some thought and one of my friends, who tends to have problems with me being a mormon said," thats easy she would try alchole, smoke,and do all the things she couldnt do because of the consequences.... my friends continued the bantering about what i would do given my last day on earth. only talking about the supposed bad things i would do.... at first i started to get angry, did they not take me serious in my faith, was i not good enough for being a mormon?? i started to doubt myself and listening to my friends assumptions on my life...they eventually got it in thier heads that yes tyaan would party hard on her last day on earth, and for that moment that single instance in time i had doubted myself, and it wasnt because i had supposedly done something wrong, it was because my friends thought they knew me.
But the thought occured to me is that they never let me answer the question. Maybe it was because they already knew the answer and didnt want it confirmed. they all knew very well that i would stay true to my faith, so then after spending way to much time on the subject, the same person who had asked me the question before asked again. it seemed to me they really wanted to know. My friend joking said with a groan,"didnt we just cover this?" and he responded yes but i want her answer, not yours. i was very surprised he didnt go along with what everyone had said about me. so i slowly started to answer and i said, well it basically would be the same as everyday, but i would try to do more for every one.
It would be the simple things... i would tell my mom i love her more often, spend time in the garage with my dad, just do things for my family and friends that i had left on a good note.... and thats when i realized... i needed to do more... i needed to be more involved... the simple things are what make a great and wonderful life.. so i will help my mom out with dinner ...to just do the small things...and try to be that better individual, becuase thats what it comes down to in the end... who you were when you lived.
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You are such a strong, amazing girl and always such a good example to those around you, including me. This is a good reminder for us all, and I will try to 'do more' as well.
PS. I like the idea of you helping with dinner. :-) Although you always do when I ask.
LOVE YOU!
That was gorgeous my love:) It's a good idea to implement the "no regrets" policy early on right?
I am proud of you my dear. Most of my friends in high school were either not members or VERY inactive and didn't make the best decisions (yes...that was in Utah). Continue making the good choices and as monotinous it can be...keep defending the faith!! Later in life you will be surprised to see that it is often the ones that give you the hardest time now about your faith that were actually listening the most. They may tease or make fun of you...deep down they wish they had something they believe in so much that they would so bravely defend it. You are a wonderful young woman. We should all do more! Thanks for your thoughts. I love you sweety.
You are so AWESOME! I think I need to help my wife with dinner more often! Thanks for being a great example to me.
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